The strength inside you
Your quiet sacrifice
I just hope I get to be like you someday.
I love you more
with every day I get older
There's a lesson I didn't know before
And with each one of them
I realize just how important
you are to the person I am becoming.
You raised me to see the good in people
and you taught me to fight for what I believe in
You taught me to see the world with kindness and compassion
and you taught me how to pursue anything and everything I loved
You taught me what helping people
is the greatest joy life can offer
Freely given, your heart and time
has shown me the power of sacrifice.
You kept me close to home
To your chest, you held me close
With my ear close to you heart
I felt the vibrations of your words
Reverberate into the deepest part of me.
At the end of everyday,
No matter what
You were there
Not a lot of people I know
Can say that about their moms
But you were there, Mom.
And for 18 years and nine months
You held me
And easier than ever it would be
To keep me there.
I was a spitfire
But you could have kept me
Close to your chest
Your words of love and guidance the only thing
My ears ever hear.
But when it was time
for me to leave
the nest you so perfectly knit together
with strings of love and lessons
branches of compassion
you stood at the edge of it all
kissed me goodbye
whispered one more lesson
I'd learn the hard way later on
and carefully nudged me out
into the world of
Whatever Was Out There For Me
not really knowing how I'd turn out
if i was actually cut out for this
not knowing what sorts of hurts would catch me
or how deep the cuts would run
or if I'd take care of them as they heal
or how many times I'd come running back to you in tears
or if I'd come back at all
You stood at the edge of that nest perched
And watched me spread the wings and chase
because that's what you told me I could be
You watched me clumsily
and probably dangerously
make my way through the air you'd never touched before
a world you hadn't carefully crafted
a life you didn't fully know anymore
and you let me learn
about the air
the love inside of it
and the hate
and the easy
(if there ever is any of that one, anyway)
the stuff you tried to tell me before
and the stuff you wished I'd never see
And if I ever needed you
to come back to the home you so knit
because you were there
and I knew
that even though I'd left
You never ever stopped loving me.
So Mama Bird,
Thank you for this life you gave to me 22 years ago.
Thank you for holding me tight
Thank you for letting me go (with a little love kick to the backside)
And thank you for never leaving me
You are so much
of the mother
I want to be one day,
and with each passing day,
I come closer to understanding just what it took for a person
To turn out to be a mother like you.
So thank you to the life you lived too, because
without that you wouldn't be you
and I like this version best.
I love you Mom.
Happy Mother's Day.